I'd like to share my viewpoint about the situation, where you are at the moment. My ex-boyfriend, and current best friend and business partner suffered from back pains, and he was waiting for a surgery.
If I had not found a way that our mind can heal ourselves, from anything, he would be now his back full of titanium. Before that, we had given our lives in hands of doctors, instead having the full control ourselves.
When you change, everything changes. The new person that you can become has a diffferent lifestyle, personality, and thinking that leads to an entirely different life. I hope everything turns out good for you, Shannon.